The healing is just beginning.
In these final weeks of 2010, the healing is just beginning. It started with writing this blog. Everyone needs an outlet of some kind to identify why they are hurting and need healing in the first place.
Putting pen to paper, or fingertips to keys on a keyboard, is one way a person can get close with their thoughts. Joan Didion once said, “We tell ourselves stories in order to live.”
Perhaps, healing comes in a two step process when one is writing. First, the thoughts enter your mind. Then, there’s an adjustment between resting on a sturdy foundation and falling into a deep pool of uncertainty. At that point, if you’re writing, the words start to flow. Then, you start to make sense of it. l guess it was more than two steps, wasn’t it?
This process, this blog is a way to heal, for me. It is my sincerest hope that if you’re reading this, and you wonder how to begin the healing process that maybe you find a nugget of hope, or process, or passages to sustain you. After all, the characteristics that make us all human come in the form of faith, hope and love and are sometimes masked as doubt, worry, or regret.
Floating on the wings of earthly angels. I’ve said this statement a few times this week and at first it sounded quite holy and mighty. Then, I realized it just happened to be the truth.
Sometimes, things change in our lives in a way that we don’t understand, or we have trouble accepting why things have changed, or just can’t get beyond being stuck in a moment.
The healing process for me got a kick start because of others in my life. The recognition that people like you for you and for no other reason is one of the most comforting feelings in the world. People just sometimes show up. You have no idea who they will be or why it is them, but when they do, embrace them with open arms. I have to.
I’m trying to like myself more. It’s really easy to give up on yourself when you’re so busy running errands, going to work, cooking meals, dealing with the kids, the cat, the dog.... You get the idea. You become exhausted. Remember when I talked about napping? We can’t do anything for anyone else if we don’t do something for ourselves. In 2011, I’m going to like myself more.
You know, giving is not about the anticipation of anything in return, it’s about the genuine human character of the giver. People who give do so because they want to and because they can.
And that, realizing that in order to really give, one must heal (which may involve forgiving oneself), accept love, and try to like themselves more and allow themselves time to do all those things, is the lesson learned in 2010.
Oh, and to smile more. Maybe someone will smile back.
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Thank you so much for your post. I believe we do act as angels in the lives of others. This is a reminder for us when we are in need (to recognize the help we are getting) and for us when we see others in need. Do not dismiss that prompting--be an angel to someone else.
ReplyDeleteThank you. It really is about having an higher awareness. Being angel to someone else is as simple as smiling and saying, "How was your day?"
ReplyDelete"In 2011, I'm going to like myself more."
ReplyDeleteOh. Right. I've never seen it put that simply before. That was awesome.
Sometimes, i can't remember long passages of self-help or affirmation, but this...this, I can remember and try my best to do.
Thanks for the inspiration.
Like Elizabeth's comment above, love this: "In 2011, I’m going to like myself more."
ReplyDeleteCheers to manifesting kindness to yourself (because it will no doubt reverberate to others...)
This is really inspiring, Annie. I'm glad I was able to read this before I begin my journey going back home. It is really encouraging. Thank you :)
ReplyDeleteP.S.
This was posted on my bday! Yay! :)